ok so this is gonna be my rants…or whatever you called em…
first…have you ever plan so many things and everything when BAM! gone??have you ever imagine things would be so colourful and then BOOM it goes black??and most important part have you ever been expected of this and that then WHAM it turned to be a total disappointment??have you ever this have you ever that??
well i do…i’ve been telling people EXPECTATIONS kill…and oh boy yes it does…i mean yes you can all talk about how it would be like this like that…but when you feel it…there you go…IT REALLY KILLS…i’ve been dealing with expectations all my life…yeah i bet we all do…but this is my part…it’s true people expect you to be everything they wanted you to be…but i never really let it get through me…not until when it is too much and you just succumb over it at some point…
kids, beware of expectations…indeed you can ignore all the outside expectations…but don’t let it get the best out of you…yes i know i may say this and that…but believe me you don’t wanna feel how it kills…it kills SLOW and let you suffer…do not get yourself to expect something too much…don’t let the expectations of others influenced you…i repeat do not let yourself go to that level…
BELIEVING and EXPECTING are two different things…mind you…it’s good to believe on your capability…but it’s definitely a whole load of shits when you started expecting THINGS out of your belief…again DO NOT EXPECT SO MUCH…i do and it hurts…you can’t just brush it away like that…it takes a whole another strength to pick up yourself and you might need to slap hard at yourself…i mean REALLY hard…
because everything would be like a dream…that moment when your expectations FELL it goes way slow…you saw things crumbling…pieces by pieces…and how you see disappointment started to come over as things turned black…no i’m not exaggerating…that’s what i felt…you do know how things are slowed in Inception right??yes that’s just the way things will fall under you…what else to do??you just stare there and tried to blink…you would be hoping to wake up and it would all just be you in a bed sweating facing your nightmare…but TIC TOC it’s not!!!it’s the muthafuckin reality…and you just got served!!
NO i’m not trying to say i’m pitiful, i’m sad, i’m lifeless or whatsoever…my point is DO NOT LET EXPECTATIONS get the best out of you…it hurts…just remember to take precautions on handling it…
YES I AM OKAY…i’m just trying to say what has been on my mind lately…but i won’t give up…cause i know things happened for a reason…and yes karma is a bitch…maybe this is my karma…but i won’t let it get through me…i know cause i have myself dealing with this shit…it’s not the end…maybe what i have in my mind ENDS but i can just create my thoughts and draw, write something new…who else gonna be there for me FIRST, other than myself??no this is not me trying to be all sorrow emo dull whatso-fuckin-ever…this is me trying to remind myself and hopefully someone who reads (if there is any…konon bnyk readers…HAHA) that EXPECTATIONS kill and they are a bunch of bitches…haha…so all i’m saying work things out cause you can pull through it…IT IS NOT THE END…i repeat…NOT THE END!!!
p/s : this is the part of me that you’re never gonna ever take away from me…NO! lulz…katy heyho way to go!
p/s 2: thank you everyone…i can only appreciate your kindness…
well well well this is the last day of 2012…and been busy with my life of course studying come to an end with performances and yada yada…with the ending of the year of 2012 i shall continue on with my review…oh TODAY ALSO REMARKS THE END OF MY UNDERGRADUATE YEARS…woootttt…so i’m unofficially graduated heyhoooo…haha…ok so let’s move on with the review of my awesome 2012…and this is gonna be long…hope you’ll survive if you’re reading…haha
#STUDY LIFE
well i was on my final year final…went through 3 semesters for this year…for the first year got something unexpected academically…wasn’t expecting that…but thank god…for the second semester starting on my final year project…not what i expected…still i’m cool with it…the third and final semester…holy cow sv for fyp went away…just like that…tunggang langgang on my project…need to change everything…got sv only on october…and have approximately 2 months to finish two semesters worth project…but then…all is well…all is well…managed to get through hell…well not that Hell but at least…oh whatever i don’t need to explain…the important thing it turned out awesome…twas bittersweet study life tho…
#LOVE LIFE
err no comment??hahahaha…
#SOCIAL LIFE
well awesome people like always have been there in my life…got closed with new ones especially UPAGsters…and closer to the closed ones…especially membe2 borneo…ah i love them…no homo…it’s sad to be leaving UTP cause well the study is over and leaving the one that i assumed as my family…been awesome with them here…though we have issues (eh adaka??haha) but still we are awesome…i know i’ll be missing these guys later…with the partay…haha…with all the laughters all the silly jokes all that tease all the FUN…ahh be sure we would stay the same when we are working…as in having fun together la…matang tu of course lah jadi matang kan…haha…anyway, let’s pray for our placement!!hehe
#OTHERS
for the others would like to say the highlight of my year…which was in October…went to KOREA!!!ahhh awesomeeee…went there for participating in Cheonan World Dance Festival 2012…it was awesome but the process to go there was…ah god only knows how tiring and how in pain everyone was…haha…as a team we performed 5 dances, Inang, Zapin, Joget, Magunatip and Wau Bulan…but as for two of us (Fieza and Me) we got to perform another one, Mengiluk…so these are the videos of our performances…
this one is the Inang, Zapin and Joget
this is the Magunatip…guess which one is me??ahaha
don’t have the official video for the Wau Bulan tho…
and then the last one would be Mengiluk…
and the exciting part is
my partner and I got a place for an award…yay!!hihi
oh as a team we got bronze for street parade too…
and fourth for best overall team…
psssttt Malaysia is the only country that got an award for every category…hoho
#CONCLUSION
so over all my 2012 was awesome…thank you everyone for making it as awesome as i can feel it to be…thank you for having me…thank you god for giving me the chance to live up my 2012…thank you my parents for all your prayers and support…thank you besties for making things just as awesome…thank you UPAG for making my wish list come true…thank you choreographer (cik ayub, abg jeff, cik hamid) for all the hardwork…thank you cik amad for all your work…thank you UTP…THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!
well well so here I am on New Year’s Eve typing in front of my laptop doing new post…no celebration no countdown or anything…forever alone…haha…2011 was so awesome though there are some shitty things but oh well life…what do ya expect huh??so it’s my two o eleven recap…what have i been doing for this year of awesomeness…
awesome #1
be part of UPAG in short for UTP Performing Arts Group…won at FESCO…after all the training we went through after all the sweats and pains everything worth with winning…the sweetest part was that the choreo need to be changed 1 week before the competition and we only have that 1 week to practice…so here’s the video of our performance…
awesome #2
family & friends…think got closer with em especially the friends part…went through half of the 2011 together with em…some all the year round!!and some though physically not there but still i know we were getting closer…cause we’re awesome…well i don’t need to mention their names…they know me well to figure out who are those i meant…haha…
awesome #3
internship…at Sabah Credit Corporation…attached at Corporate & Training department…involved in graphic and design tasks for my main jobscope…too many to tell…great things happened…gained few KGs…like fuckyea…haha…ate a lot…the environment at the office was great…tho bout the works at times things got out of hand, stressing out…but then need to face it…that’s working life…involved in plenty of activities at the office…met awesome people…roughly was there around 8 months…and the best part was, i ended my internship with this
and so that’s the awesome part of my 2011…briefly though…it won’t be enough if i write every single little thing…haha…still i’m grateful to be able to go through 2011…thank god for everything…for the awesome things that i’ve been given chances to experience…hope your 2011 was great too…and let us welcome 2012 with positivity on things that will happen!!happy new year everyone…let memories be made, and let mistakes fade…hope 2012 will be awesomer eyh!
