2000s the 13th…
and so the 2013 has just ended…and as usual i’m gonna do my recap for 2013…they said 13 is unlucky…so does my year…haha…oh well not really unlucky but it’s just that quite a number of bad things happened compared to the lucky ones…no i am not trying to complain or anything but i’m thankful for the not so lucky things to happen…well gotta say i have lucky things happened too so i am really grateful for all of those lessons and blessings…so i’m just gonna point out some things i can recap on…
#STUDY LIFE
okay 2013 is my graduation year…graduated officially on Jan 2013…first strike of lucky…and LUCKY enough to graduate with second class upper…thank you god…really really thank you…i know i am not that academically excel hoo haa brilliant dean’s list material but you did give me on what i have worked on…you gave me the chance to fix of all the things when i fell in the previous years…fast forward my convocation was on october (yessss that was one hell of a long wait!!but it was worth the wait) so got my official scroll and stuffs…above all i survived my almost 5 years of so called struggle…haha…sweeettttt
#WORK LIFE
this one i don’t even know where to begin…well the strike of the so called unlucky began on 31st January…yeah yeah that thing…then searched through every single thing that i know…but to no end…got some sort of light when this one household name decided to let me through to final stage…but teettttt nope not my time…strike two of unlucky…haha…i did my hunt for i think around 10months??can’t even count how many interviews i went through from phone to face to face to skype…presentations, examinations, tests, faking my nerve, forcing my smile cause i was hoping too much till my nerve went numb…it came to the point that,’owh another interview…okaayyyy…just go’…i was not even hoping i was not even trying…haha…yeah basically it came to the point of giving up…that period of unemployment really has eaten i think most of me that i used to know…okay cheesy…whatever…hahaha…well it’s not that being jobless taking its toll but it’s the environment of being jobless…not just financially but others too…
anyway, was offered two different jobs on november…but i chose the one in sabah…ah crap i don’t want to think about the other one…moving onnnn…so far i love my job…well the nature of it…it was the exact JD that i was searching for…well you see when you are being jobless for that long you tend to appreciate every single thing in your job…although it can be challenging (well who says job is all flowers and butterflies?) but you would always remind yourself on the times when job was just the hardest part…haha…in the end it all comes back to you whether to enjoy it or not…
#LOVE LIFE
teeettttttttttttt…moving oonnnnnnnnnnn…hahaha
#SOCIAL LIFE
this one was quite interesting…for 2013 of course…met awesome people…then got to know people can be such a hypocrite…that hurts…but oh well i will always tend to remind myself do not stoop so low…so to awesome people that i have met thank you for the 2013…cheers for 2014…and for those i may have hurt i am deeply sorry for i don’t know what i did was hurting…
they say friends come and go…well they do but it’s you who keep them…it doesn’t matter if they stay or not what matters most is you should stay…because i have come to believe in ‘give and take’…you don’t deserve to have someone to stay when you are the one leaving…so i’m trying to lean towards the stay…
so social life for 2013 has that mix thing…awesome and so not awesome…but i really appreciate those i have met and those i have grown closer to…thank you…
#DANCE LIFE
2013 is(was?) the year i would so called retiring from my dance life…well i have graduated so basically i was out from UPAG…haha…but after my graduation i did served for around 3 months…hehe
on January participated in Malaysia Dance Village in UITM Shah Alam…only God knows how in pain we were…well we were only given around 1 week ONE FREAKING WEEK plus a day or two to learn 4 new choreography…haha…that was really a crazy one…but we did awarded with Anugerah Kumpulan Harapan so twas bittersweet journey…
then on February, participated in 2013 Taiwan Lantern Festival in Hsin Chu County…twas a great memory…well we did enjoy the moments there…but most of all i was the one that screwed up the most…so the reason for THE great memory…hahahaha…damn it…embarrassing…anyway that was my last show…for i don’t how long…perhaps for ever??haha…
#GENERAL
all in all 2013 was the year that i have come to terms with myself…too many so called ‘unlucky’ things happened (well of course other than that unemployment) that made me realised things…lessons…somehow i really learned a lot after all those things happened…
i am really thankful god, for putting me through all of it…those are really blessings in disguise…i am not sure what you have stored for me in 2014 but all i know i will try my hardest to be happy and appreciate things…and sorry in advanced cause i might have a complain or two perhaps three (okayyy maybe there will be a lot) through my journeys but i know you are there accompanying me…
ok that’s it for my recap…phew that was quite long…oh happy new year!!may this one filled with happiness and joy!!bye
utp and i
so here’s me throughout the year in utp…haha
well am trying to see of how i change in utp…
vain much eyh??haha
but…whatever~ haha
so here goes
toast for the will-be~
it’s frikkin 5 something…and yes in the morning…got so bored nothing to do…so blogging it is…so,it is the 31st december of 2010…yeah yeah…the last frikkin day of 2010…2010 will be the past…and here goes the 2011…so while speaking of the so called year 2010 like typical end of year post (yeah i know people will get bored…suck it up and face it…don’t wanna read, may as well go to hell…shoohh!! ok easy there~ *smile*) i’m going to write bout my 2010…all along 2010 lots of things happen…great things…the shittiest thing ever also happened in 2010…but let’s do some recap…
STUDY LIFE
ok study thingy…my 1st year 2nd semester and 2nd year 1st semester was in that year…1st year 2nd was one hell of horrible sem…way shitty…remembering it, is just way hard…ok i don’t wanna talk bout it…cause it’s just sucks…2nd year 1st semester…got myself a brand new me…got some counselling…from my sponsor…he who should not be named…but hell i know they were just pretend to care…they don’t even remember your name…even your course…so,why bother??just go on with this shitty life and work my ass up…proud of myself for this one subject…well Business Systems Development…for the first time i do kinda a bit well in programming subject…it was horrible, the past programming subjects…got 8.1 for the project…AND HELL YES I SMILED TO MY FUCKING AWESOMEST!!!haha…overall the 2nd year 1st was ok…don’t know bout the result but might as well cross the fingers…*crossing fingers tightly*
ETC
2010 was also the year that i got to meet my bestest friend ever…NINI EVO VAIZURA SAZALI…the wanted-to-be-called MENG…after 2years only i got to see her…and i have to admit i was FUCKING NERVOUS upon seeing her at KL Sentral…HAHA…dumbass!!but then brightness translated on my face when i saw her…fuckyeah!!!then let’s move on to the BBQ partay at Tg Aru Beach…it was Charo, Meng, Ben, Jimmy, Valen and I…hang out till night…and it was the awesome shit ever!!THANKS FOR THE FUCKING AWESOME MEMORY!!!!damn it i miss US!!!
went to kuching too with Nunih and Lo…fetched by Acap and Nana at the airport…were there for 1 week…hang out with the mentioned name plus Azuwan and Awang…sadly the one who should be there weren’t there…yes Stiel…dia xda!!!appuuu~ anyways, awesome trip!!!went to the mall…and serious shit there were no single PILAK can be seen…if you went to KK, prepare for an eyesore…or maybe internal eye bleeding…HAHA…cause there were tonnes of PILAK…holy crap terabur sana sini…i know they were human too but would you please stop acting like you own the place??in your own country we wouldn’t be treated as kind as you here fuckers!!!SEMAK LA BODO!!!ok so kuching is AWESOME…
oh 2010 also the beginning of the Syahmi Bieber thingy…dang!!!my picture was compared to Justin Bieber…yes that Baby singer if you don’t know…and was claimed to be the same…what the hell right??haha…
so that’s that much about my so-called 2010…let’s toast for 2011…hope it’ll be fucking awesome!!!FINGERS CROSSED!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
the letter……
The smiles that u gave,
although it’s just a few,
something precious has paved,
inside of me, cause of u…
brave to carry on,
having hope, as it goes on,
until things are done
for ur smile, pain is none…
loving might not right,
but it’s worth to fight,
just for happiness on ur side,
only that matters, in my sight…
it is just not about having,
for the smiles, worth the living,
cause u’re not something to be owned,
u are someone to love on…
taking the bullet i’ll be,
in this particular journey,
tho u know nothing bout me,
just a smile, i’ll die gladly…
satisfied living like this,
cause i have my bliss,
as long as it is promised,
ur happiness, that is…
cause i call it awesome~
i'd take bullets for them~
“alongside we walk,
all along we talk,
the world went silent,
only us in that moment…
no matter how far,
don’t give a damn where we are,
let everything be gone,
as we’ll go as one…
thru all the things,
thru all the suffering,
i will be always there,
ready, taking the bullet all the way~“
urs truly,
-syahmijasrin-
when i was small~
(sound of rewind of a tape)
oh wait!!pause~
since when do i WAS small…
i AM small!!duh~
(sound of forward of a tape)
ok screw it…so while i was frikkin bored…wanna blog bout my past ambition…
well all thanks to Nana’s Jah (pelik pula~ haha)
sori klu this promotion xdsukai…gomen~
but i read her blog…and suddenly i was thinking bout
MY CHILDHOOD DREAM~
(rays of light shine at the laptop and sound of holy thingy played)
ok2…here it goes…
ambition #1
i wanna be a teacher…yeah typical of childhood dreams…
cause of what??
both my parents are teacher…
my mom was my maths teacher in Year 2…
so i kinda like the way she was teaching…
plus i will be able to nag at the kids…
and spank them hard!!ahaha…
ambition #2
a policeman…
it’ll be cool to just shoot the criminal…
with the scenes of shooting…coolness~
well it was all thanks to Gerak Khas (yeah i know this one sucked~)…
and other involving-police-shooting movies
ambition #3
scientist…
why??
errkk i dunno why i choose to be this one…
oh cause it seems cool playing with all those chemicals…haha
and might have some explosion…kebabom~
ambition #4
singer…
yes indeed i was planning to be a singer…haha
with voice so not great to be heard, i wanna be 1…silly me~
cause i think it’s cool to perform to everyone…
where everyone will enjoy of u performing…
and i think i will be rich…won so many awards…haha
ambition #5
doctor…
yes i wanna try to help those unfortunate in their health…
i wanna be trying my best of helping them…
i got to be cool saving lives and got myself some hot nurses…haha
xxx———a pause——a long long pause—-a long, yes very long pause—-xxx
when it is time for my SPM…i got so many ambitions…but one thing that is desired…a designer…yeah i wanna be a designer…fashion designer to b exact…plus interior designer as well…i kinda like it when i designed some things…oh i also like when i design shapes of building…able to build something metal and huge like in my design…that will be awesome!
my ambition of becoming teacher i erased…cause both of my parents are teachers…and all (just 2 actually) my big brothers are teacher-2-b…my cousins are teachers…their dad was a teacher…so it’s like i wanna have something different…let me be the different one…plus being a teacher is like having mountains crashin on ur shoulders…the responsibilities are just way too big for me…and i don’t think i can handle it…i was actually being forced on taking TESL…but i strictly declined…
for the policemen…i erased it without thinking much…it’s just simply I DONT WANNA DIE~ it is so not cool of a dead just because of a gun shot…especially in the head…so not cool~
scientist…hmmm this one i also dunno why i just dun want it to be my ambition anymore…haha…oh well being a scientist is just way too general…i need to be specific…so screw the scientist-to-be idea…
singer…oh ho ho ho…till now i must confess i still have the heart on becoming one…still things will be cooler if i can perform to people…at the stage doing concert and everyone just enjoy me performing…i got to be at awards show…but still i can’t achieve it cause i do not have the VOICE…what would it do if a singer that aint got any voice…useless…i wanna be able to perform live…not like ashlee simpson that lipsync when performing…zero coolness~
becoming doctor also have to be erased…i just cannot get myself click with Biology…the subject that i kinda hate the most…cause it involved the memorisation…i hate when there are too many facts to be remembered…i am more to physics and chemistry…i love the subjects…cause it involved application on real thing…well i guess biology can be applied in real thing but i found it to be fucking hard…haha…with the physics and chemistry being at my heart i wanna be chemical engineer…but one thing screwed me up…my additional maths…the core subject in taking engineering…yes i was sucked at additional maths…just because i was a lazyass…i’m way too not in the mood on doing the exercise…and i ended up screwing this particular subject…and fyi chemical engineering was my 1st choice in applying any scholar including petronas…and it proved to be my add maths screws it all…damn it…i have choice on continuing to be engineer in matrix…but i simply do not want to go there…just because i hate wearing FORMAL CLOTHES for going to lecture…and i heard it’ll be hard…plus i will still learn add maths which will be another sucky thing for me…but then i got petronas scholarship…on what??business information systems…things that i dunno much about…things that i only know that it involves MEMORISATION…shit another misery~ but i just take it…just because i dun wanna go to matrix and because i know i will LEARN to love the programme offered…
now i dun really care of ambitions…at some point i just let myself go with the flow…flow of life i mean…where life takes me that’ll be my ambitions…i just dun give a damn about having something i used to call ambitions…for me u can dream whatever u want but if the reality is suck and makes u stuck, having bad luck cannot achieve that dream of urs ,*snap* then it’s just the same…i might say i might scared to try…but i dare to say that i face the reality…cause i know i won’t pull it off if that dream of mine if i chase it…i know my own strength and i consider all the facts…and i moved on…cause i realise if u just chase for one thing that u surely can’t u might ended up falling fast and fucking hard…as i know how it felt…as of this moment i just let my life to go on…and waiting for where it will lead me to…
oh and i live my life to the fucking fullest!!!
p/s : oh i kinda like Justin Bieber video Somebody to love remix ft Usher…
just because of the dance ok~ don’t think lain2…got poreotix at the vc…
that’s why i kinda like…KINDA LIKE ok…cheers~ ;”)
don’t wanna make this thing an expired trash~
ok…so i just wanted to update this blog…
cause don’t want it to be some abandoned junk…
n i wanted to post some pictures of myself…
wanted to see how much i evolved…haha
ok introduction…haha…this is me~
this 1 when i was 3...as far as i could remember~
96...when i was 5...
year 2000...that makes me 9
ok i was the smallest one there…we were competing in
Festival Kesenian Peringkat Negeri Sabah…
in Labuan…more to cultural dance thingy…huhu…
year = 2001...i was 10~
ok i was the one at the most left…
wearing a cap…
this was taken at the period of our competing in the same festival as mentioned above…
but of course a different year…
n totally wonderful memory that year was~
2002...was 11...final of my 'darjah' year...
ok there was the brightest smile u might see there…haha
that one is me…smiling 2nd from the right…
2005...i was 14...
find me if u can…hahaha…
2006...was 15...entered mrsm
ok i was with Nini Evo Vaizura Sazali…
taken at bazaar MRSM Kota Kinabalu…
soon become the BEST-cool-FRIEND…
2007...i was 16...
graduated from MRSM Kota Kinabalu…
n yeah of course this was The Graduation Day…
2008...was 17...
this was actually taken when i was 16…
16 goin 17 to be exact…
entered Universiti Teknologi Petronas…
the so beautiful university (as being claimed)…haha
2009...i was 18...
just last year…
ok now the latest one…the 2010~
haha…
2010...i will be 19
waaallaaaa~
yup…2010 i will be 19…
was taken at 12th February 2010…huhu
p:/s : like the hair…haha
so that’s me~
cuti2 malaysia…(not really…)
ok so i’m in my holidae season…for 1month++…n so far soooo not good…i’m bored~~
so not good…with thinking bout my result which i guess will b screwed…
well, i’m not like lo, scoring 5 subjects 4 50++ except 4 econ but still pretty close to 50…
the courseworks marks i mean…n fyi, it was out of 60…smart eyh c lolo ne…
in fact i’m the opposite…scoring 5 subjects 4 40++ except 4 english…but whatever~~haha
yesterdae i did went out with my frens…Lo, Jimo, n Nuge…
we decided to go out n have sum fun as the other guys feelin bored also at home…
went there (centrepoint) with jimo and we arrived at 10++…then lo at 15minutes l8er…
then nuge arrived at 11…nuge paling dkt centrepoint 2 dgn rmh dia…
but he was the really-the-late one…jimo n i yg paling jauh but we were the one yg awl…
xpa2…then we went to chicken rice shop…havin our lunch trus…after that went for bowlin…
those 3 ja yg men bowling…with 3 games…1st one jimo won…then 2nd one jimo lg xslap…xslap la…
then d last one lo pla yg mnang…i was laughin all thru the 3games…because there were this group…
dogo ne…haha…bla dorng ckp 4 sure ktawa…hahaha…so evil so evil…tp wat can i do…
really funny…lo also laughing…huhu…den one of em was so bringin lucky to Lo…
after she knocked out pins (not strike la) lo akn dpt jatuhan pin dgn banyak sekaliii…haha…
bgus LORENZO!!so proud of u…till lo mmenangi the 3rd game…hahaha…
then we went to hunt 4 new phone 4 jimo…sadly there were none…
we tried searched 4 d phone at wawasan plaza…but still zero…jimo decided to go home…
3 of us decided to go to 1borneo…but after a hard decision making we went to city mall…
went to kbox there…well,it was spacy and has a good sound system so i suggested there…huhu…
lgpn lo n nuge blum prnh lg pegi sna…so we went there…n we paid 4 kboxing 4 1hour…
just rm12…rm10 4 standard room…we paid for d deluxe room…bigger than d standard one…
lo sang 5 songs, also me with 5 songs then nuge with only 4 songs…smpt jg pilih lagu b4 being closed…
after that we went home…it was still fun tho at first we were thinkin wat were we goin to do…
looking 4ward 4 d next havin-fun time…can’t wait…
a cool hectic week
well, the hectic week was over…
what a relieve…
but kinda sad…
well,i had fun…tonnes of fun…
cool!!
the 1st day was held in utp…
the for the 2nd day we moved on to Hot Spring Sungai Klah, Perak…
the journey was awesome…
major coolness!!
here are some of the pictures
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- bored waiting for foods to come
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- in the monopoly room
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- the monopoly
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- cinderella with the evil step sister n step mother
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- bila keboringan
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- aye captain!!!
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- cool!!
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- it’s an art at the hot spring
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- stacey n I
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- HRM YEC
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- in the car otw balik
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- hot spring sg Klah
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- if there’s time…we take pictures!!
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- coolness
– hoping there’ll b awesomeness in d future event –
escaping reality 